LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 61

 Jungkookssi and everyone who reads this post,i was absent because like said in other post, theres so  many things happend in my life...and now can confirm some of them....i definitely i will move on to a new house...so im feel a little afraid and also excited  with new adventure.....since months ago i knew i will to move on to do things i need to do and i finally can do it....2 week ago i went to the place,to walk the street and know it more...and even it is different i liked...it is a bittersweet feeling...i always like the new begins, im excited...new people,new places,new things....

Of course is difficult at the begining but i try to grow up more and fullfill my goals in life....I also last week i kinda have a fight with one of my best friends....that was hard,i even cry a little, i think i need to trust more in others....Because what happend in my family when i was little i think i kinda find hard to trust people....and that make me close off to others....so im trying to be more relax in that area....the same thing happens to you as it does to me?...

I also kinda sad because i dont know nothing about you Jungkook, i mean i think there photos of jimin and you in militar service, and i ruhn to it for accident because i dont use tik tok and X....so i really dont know nothing about you as the same as Suga....that make a little sad but at the same time im trying to think about what ar you doing...you know what is better for yourself...or maybe you want to be very focus on your service...im trying to understand not judge you....

If you feel better like that, i must respect your wish....hope soon you can write to us in weverse or maybe see so bam pictures...you said that bam could have a instagram account or maybe i didnt find it jejej....im also trying to figure out some problems i have,like i said in other posts, im very mad about a enterprise who use my data to activate phones on my name,that i didnt request,so that make me very bad for my health,was the reason i didnt write too, becajuse in the night i couldnt sleep for the preocupation....hope your worries are l.ess that me Jungkookssi....please be happy and in calm....of course all the menbers too....Army is always think in you guys..we are waiting for all 7 of you :)

We love you

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 60

 Jungkookssi is real love like kdramas? i have a few years watching kdramas...and the love is showing is so pure,honest and bold....i never knew a love like that...some boys liked me but i dont think i kew a love like that, except for the love of mom....a love bold,huge and loyal....right now im watching 내 남편과 결혼해줘 and in episode 11 im watching the love of the protagonists bloom...i hope one day,we can find that....i dont mean us, i mean you will be with someone you want and thats also applies to me..often we are scare,as human beings,to be betrayed or left behind...and i think sometimes thats make us not try to find or at least to try to reach hapiness....within ourselves or with others....im 30 so im expecting to meet my special one some day,i often think about not having kids...but these few years i really like the idea...even is hard to raise a child...i think that must be most gratifying things in life...are you agree?

 Surely one day, you will have your "Jeon San" or Jeon Soul"....i always liked the name Ethan and Ian jeje yes Ian....or Ewan like one of my favourite characters in Star Wars....did i tell you? I LOVE STAR WARS since a kid...i have so many thing of Star Wars and i watched every movie and serie...these few years i buied some things of Grogu(aka baby yoda)....if one day, we meet,please gift me something of Star Wars ? okey....jaja just kidding....the one thing i want is that you will be happy....of course all the menbers to...all  7 of you are special for us...and deserve true love,,,here,now and always...jnjj

I will continue the kdrama....is so exciting!....sweet dreams

Love

E

photo: google

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 59

Jungkookssi i need to let it out, what happened to me today,the way i feel, maybe someone feels the same and i can help ?

Today was a very difficult day...if i need to be honest,yesterday and today...i have so many problems at this moment....like i tell so many posts ago,a telephone company is creating each month a new line so each month i have to go to cancel it...which is exhasuted and make me so mad.....another things is happening is that me and other girls,a girl scaammed us...so that make me mad and hopeless.....also there a aeroline enterpirse who is not returning me the money,because i fly was cancel...i wait 3 months and now they tell me i have to wait like 3 months again.....and also im very strestfull because i waiting someone who tell if i can move in to a place...

So i feel this few days that is make me feel bad because i cant saw a way out....so i very angry this days...witth everyone around me....so im trying to walk a lot to feel more calm...sometimes my mind is my worst enemy, i mean iim INFP and my mind is something wonderfull who help me to be better,to help,to understand others and to think multiples ways to do things. But also my mind doesnt get tired to think! and that in this cases is so exhausting ;( 

Of course INTPs spend more time in their minds coming up with new ideas or figuring out complex problems than they do engaging with the outside world jojo Yes we are :)

💚 Sooooo well this is my advice::

💜Walk Walk Walk Walk...as most as you can to clear your mind and dont bring your phone! forget about it!

💜See nature if you can...green (my favourite color) and tree and birds and so many things we see in parks makes us happy so give it a try.

💜Check out reels of BTS...Yes! I mean it...At least for me,it works!...When i feel sad i see Jungkook reel on instagram and that make me laugh...also i like to see menbers fool around...that also make me laugh and make me forget about my problems, at least momentaneously.

Hope i can help you...of course this are not the best advices i will search for more and come back okeyy?

In the mid time, stay healthy and happy

Love

E.

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 58

Yeah... Today i saw the lyrics of "no more dream", "not today" and "Fire" I mean the meaning in english...i really like this kind of music...because is disruptive of korean society... i really like when them tell us to follow our dreams besides what people or society said...but of course i believe is so importan to study,even institute or university...whatever your situation let you do...what is important is to studied...

Like me i get to in in 3 university but because i couldnt paidment in that moment and also for me that university wasnt good (that was another reason i didnt started)...i got in from a school exams to get it more easy in the last year of school...but then,the following years i studied my fashion career and years ahead another that has to do with turism but then pandemic came so i couldnt continue...so whatever your situatiation are, is important to study something,always....Jungkookssi you said this too right? in one of your Weverse Live... 

Also i really like from these song are the lyrics about to never give up,crawl if you can walk...the important is to keep going...dont give up,youre dreams worth it...you know it right?

Lets keep enduring and persevering in our dreams and lest be better person than yesterday :)

가자!!!

사랑해요.

엘리

Bighit photo hybelabels

Keep going

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 57

 Today i wanna talk about you, Jungkookssi...how are you doing? you feel good? feel adjusted to your new life for some months? Surely you miss army.....if you could write some message for us, that will be so nice! of course only i you find some time...I know you and all menbers are very busy...and i also take this oportunity to thank the warmfull messages of our little sunshine Hobi...the precious letters full of heart of Jimin, the trustfull videos of our Jinnie,the constant love Nam is showing us tru his carefull continuiti of his pictures...we really miss you, suga too..obviously Tae Tae too  :) 

We miss you all!!! So very much...

Thank you for all the things you prepared for Us....Cant wait for see "Hope on the street"...like all you know i love dancing, since my sprain i cant do it as much i want...but i hope and im sure that will be better on little time....

Also i wanted to remenber the Army to help BTS to have the most normal life as can be...lately with all the advertisment of all the menbers of BTS...(Even I feel glad that they can earn money and do what they want about brands and taste)...but i cant help to thing that all these things...make them less reachable about oportunities to find someone trustfull to love...i mean obviously if that happend will be so sad for me and of course for Army....but lets be real,girls...it will be very difficult to us,normal people,to someday meet them for more than a fan meeting...but all of them will in few years turn 30 or even some of them is near by.....i really hope that even with the fame and money let them to find true people to trust and value them for his heart,for who they reallly are...I hope all BTS find true love,as i hope one day i can find it too....lets keep the faith girls, we find true love,if you still reaching like me...enjoy your time with yourself...is precious and necesary to be better humans and to be ready to give the true love that our special someone will deserve :)

Lets be happy and healthy always

With love

E.

Step by step

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 56

Today i will talk about the appearances in people....maybe this will not like to many but sorry i have to be true and sincere and what i feel and what i see....thru the years i saw many people hang from BTS or any of the menbers....that the reason i was so angry with Usher...i mean i love Usher,like i said in other post,i admire his music since adolescense and also i did choreography covers of his song...but when he up his trailer of Superbowl  with supossed to indicate which  of the song will present...here the reel im talking about,in the finale seconds HERE

Maybe some of you can say, but is not usher account or even nfl....and your right the video is from rocnation as you can saw in the reel but let me ask you some questions:

If Usher know it that he will not use SNTY for superbowl,i dont mean from jk parts of the song, i mean his part of the song,who was sooo good,in other post i said that i really like me even more that the 3D version of Justin Timberlake(by the way who also didnt post anything about that song,that make me very mad but well) 

Like i said if Usher KNOW that he will not dance o sang SNTY, why he included in the trailer of the superbowl?...or if some enterprice said to him to put on it....why he accept?,if he knew that he will not do anything of SNTY....that made me very angry and disappointed...

He shouldent accept to record that part if he will not do SNTY...for me was only to gain views...of course Army were saw it hoping maybe was a pre-recorder part of Jungkook or just to remenber him....so for my that was so dishonest....was playiing with Armys heart, that angry me to,aslo im not the only one who think like that, many army said the same about to only uses us to gain views....so that was disappointed.....and worst! when Jungkook congratulated through the account of BTS in Instagram....and Usher just re posted...with no "thanks bro o anything", that also make me angry too..this was the congratulations of Jungkook,but he post it without nothing more, and that make me angry 👇

                                                        Screenshot from :Instagram of Usher.
 

He was so sweet to tell him that was a dream come true to work with him.....he writing something so sweet and dont have a respond publicly,like he deserve,that make me angry to.....well please write down if im wrong but all humans beings deserve love if we give love....

Well i have to sleep,tomorrow is a busy day...

Sweet day for all

E

Keep going

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 55

 Jungkookssi i have to tell you something sad, i tought this will never happend to me because i very carefull...but happend to me and many more here in Peru,we buy some pre order from "weverse" from a  Girl,the girl have a company who delivers the merch or that was supossed to was trustfull or at least, supposed to be like that, im not sure if only in lima o maybe in other cities...i buy some things with her,and she supossed to buy it from weverse ,i buy and paid these things: SET ALBUM GOLDEN +WEVERSE ,KEYRING SEVEN Y VOGUE X JK WHITE  FRONT PAGE :( 

And im so sad that many of us,we were scammed. I really dont understand why so many people do this, is so cruel and dishonest, play with our emotions and our money, money that is so hard to get in this times...it is so unfair...surely that person is enjoy the money but surely too is in big problems with all of the girls...she have so many customers as i can saw in the format....so that make me very mad and sad at the same time.

Surely you and also Nam,Jhope,Suga,Jimin,Tae and Jin feel the same way...for this girl who is playing with the emotions of Army...

My work today was heavy so im tired,i have to sleep...

Thank you for your time,if you are seeing this,i dont know jeje but for the people who are seiing this, please be carefull who you trust, make sure 2,3 or 4 times to be a good enterprise, nobody deserves be  scammed,it is not fair and also is cruel...

Hope all you can rest well today all over the world

With love and empathy

E.

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 54

Yesterday i couldnt write anything because my leg was hurting too much and also have a very bad day in  traffic and in my work....so my patience was 0...but today i woke up a little better,my mon help me with a cream in my body and that help me a lot...our moms are very important right?...The family is the one is with us for life...long ago realize that a lot of friends ,be not good  for us in the long run...i mean they be not good friends after all....that is sad...surely you know now that Jungkook....or maybe you dont know yet...if is like that i hope that anyone of your friends dont break your hearts,like so many did to me,girls and boys as same....Im like the person or i just tend to be like the person who always thinks in my friends...

Some years ago, i put a rule in my life,i must not tell personal things of my life to a person is not my friend at least  7 years, in this last 10 years, i broke my own rule 2 time for a 2 friends(girls both) and both of them disappointed me....so i was very sad in that time...when i was more young some of my problems was about jealous from them...or maybe my male friends want to be more than friends with me but my friend(a girl) was jealous,like it was my fault!...thats was so unfair but happend so i just to lose friends....Now im more like if you want to be my friend, good lets  be friends but if you dont want to,fine too, have a good life!...:)

I dont tend to forgive fast, that is something bad of me....of course there are levels,things simple is easy to forgive but other things take me long time even some of them i never forgive, of course this cases are people who hurt me a lot to me and close love ones, and never apologize to me or to them...that was the reasons i couldnt forgive....not aply for tiny o small things....but well, we are humans,we are not perfects, i feel confort that know that, God is not expecting to me  be perfect and  he understand me and what i feel....take me very long years to finally understand that God understand me and accepting me as i am...with strengths and weakness...some people close to me,make me feel bad in the past for the fact i couldn forgive some things that really hurt my childhood, my adolescence and also adulting....but know now  that God understand me and dont force me to forgive when some people hurt me to the point to make a trauma....that help me to feel better and in peace...

Hope Jungkookssi feel in calm always :).

With love from Peru to Korea

페루에서 한국까지 사랑으로

E.

                                        Photo from Google

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 53

 Today im not sure what to write...like i said in other times, i try to have always something to said that is worthy, but maybe there is something i can said,i recently saw the 7 episode of marry my husband 내 남편과 결혼해줘

And when i saw this episode make me think about if we have the chance, we revenge us for those who can hurt us....im surely would try...but also that make me think....that would change the result? Maybe not and maybe us convert in the one thing we hate....a person who is bad,dishonest and hurt other...I really dont want to be like that...i think with years of experience is like Taylor Swift said in a song: The bad people will destruyed themself and also like this pic 👇

                                                              Fuente: Pinterest.

So I think that the thing like happend, is the way must be, because thanks to that we are here now, with experience and wisdow....obviously is painfull but brought us here and now...maybe like this k-drama i would try to do my best to not make the same mistakes...also this SONG of Taylor Swift is one of my favourites,..is about to love one besides other people think or do. :)

Well i have to sleep,tomorrow is working day :) 

Keeping the score

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Today i saw episode 6 of Marry my Husband,is the episode when the protagonist is listening BTS first album...i dont wanna spoiler you jaja but i really like seeing how much BTS means in the popular culture,obviusly proud of them but im sure for them,like themself said in BTS MONUMENTS, they dont expect  THIS FAME...they only wanted to do music and be happy about it...surely they sometimes must feel unreal...and isnt the only kdrama or serie thar include they music,surely they feel proud in a good way for all that they accomplisment.

Of course like we saw in BTS MONUMENTS...the fame is not all good, there is not privacy in most cases and untrue people who wanna be your friend....and that is so frustating...but like Nam said, he is trying to be happy even with the difficulties and wanna show army how to overcome the difficult stuff....thats the correct point of view in life...try to see the good in the bad things. 

There was a time when i just to be negative or overthink stuff, and i am still like that in certain way but i try to be more positive...i can tell that in difference of other years, i am more calm when is about make decision or when bad things happen....

I tend to think like this 👇, i will wright here,hope if you are in some situaction can help you:

1.- I think, what can i do about it? and if i can do something to remediate, i do

2.-If things go bad...will go that bad as i imagine? In my years of experience, stuff dont go as bad as we think..

3.- I wait and dont make a move over a few days or a  week if is a decisiton to the long run...sometimes my problems they resolve themself. :)

Our life is precious,dont stress out because this can harm your health

Lets be happy and healthy all of us 

E.

Keep going

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 51

 Hello...i need to tell you that i am so angry...like i tell you in the previous post, i trying to moving...in fact the person who rents us this department is really a crazy madam...i dont know what to said...is a person who is see if we watch tv to late o keep the light on..what a hell? what about privacy.she has two sons but she control the,is a shame...poor boys...i feel sorry for them...all the money in the world cant give they a personality...i think because this madam is so bored in her life that is so attend to othes life...i really hope that i can go quickly...and this also make me feel that surely exist some people who have to face this with relatives or unknow people....thats so sad...

But if you who can read this lines are happening for this situation...keep shinning tru the dark night..make the best posible to continue forward and find a solution....im sure if you look more,you can find,someone you love or a relative or a friend who can help to run of this situation....just think about it deeply and if you are a believer,pray to God to help.works for me....i think he is helping me to find a  solution and to be more in peace....if you dont believe in God, find people who love you too and try to find a solution, we deserve to be happy....at least in some degree in this life...

Dont forget all our dreams worth to pursue....dont give up!! 

FIGHTING!!!

화이팅

Lets keep shining together BTS & ARMY :)

E.

We keep working 

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 50

Good Day Jungkookssi, im excited and also nervous, today i made a decisition about my life...i will move out...im mean im made a first step today to do that....hope it will work...noo ne of my family know...but i think is the best for me right at least for a few months....I went today to see the place and i went out with my love ones i have in that district,we walk and also we eat ice cream...It a new place for me,im sad to leave friends but the feeling of a new place and a new things to see make me very happy...im think that every change is for good, and i have a good reason so i hope all comes to a place to be concrete...i will know in a days....

Sometimes i worried about this feeling to like new things,new places and new people....i supossed i have to marry someone that dont bored me jejej...someone who like to learnd new things, and always move forward and do more things...i think you are like that Jungkook....so i think you can understand me...but often i worried if this feeling is bad or maybe this feeling will not allow me to create a good relationship...what do you think?

Today i saw the 9 episode of Gangman Beauty and i like something Kang Mi rae said: "Everybody change and also our relationships, it dont cares how big the change it is and even that we cant imagine their consequences....if a change is comforting is beautifull". 

The hapiness of other can bring me a lot of hapiness....also said...so i will tell you in a few days if everything goes well or what i gonna do...

Stay tuneee

Good night or day

Army miss you and miss the 7 of you...

E.

LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 49

Good day jungkookssi, I'm watching marry my husband(kdrama) 내 남편과 결혼해줘 / Nae Nampyeongwa Gyeolhonhaejwo is very interesting but in the 2 episode I'm watching the protagonist revenge of the bad friend but that make me wonder....what if we have a 2 chance to do the things differently but in that space we change who we are...I'm mean revenge to other will not make us better person even if it is satisfactory at the moment...

I hope always we make good decitions to not hurt others and to be happy...i will tell you more aboout this k drama and what i learn for it....okey? i have headache i will sleep. Take care so much

good day or night

XOXO

E.

Keep up

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I'm little sad today,I feel a little bad cuz I have cold... but I'm more worried about some things of my health.. it's not that I feel bad all the time, it's just I saw the results of many medical exams and is like new things arise and that make me feel sad... Jungkookssi something I noticed when I watched some videos of BTS seems like you have some health problems, I didn't know that, like in the episode of Monument or in the concerts when you're need some oxygen....that make me worried about you... but also make me feel proud of you, because even when some health problems happen to you,you still are bright and shine,at the point that even Army didn't know about your problems...Im a person who always make jokes and try to be positive but maybe in this blog don't seems like it jajaja I'm sorry I'm not a boring person or a angry and sad person....maybe I open my heart too much in this blog...I have good friends and I have a good family, good mother and good brothers.... besides my health "problems" I have a very happy life...I have time more than money and that make me feel in peace..I work to have time for me and the ones I love...

Hope your health problems are not serious....I hope also all the members are okey...we really want all of you good...please take care so much in military training ;)

We miss all of you

E.

:)