LETTER TO JK SOUL N" 43

Today i saw episode 6 of BTS monuments...i really like it because they said that they dedicated they life to BTS so they didnt know themself....in this new chapter to be separated and be in the militar duty and they think that must discover what they want and to what makes them more happy....I undrstand that,that happend to me...i mean not in the same way obviously....but i understand when you dedicated yours effort to be someone o something and in the middle you think...this is what i want to be? or im just running in that direction because i decided that long time ago?...BTS run in the direction to be the best and that feeling of not be static and continue getting better is what brings them to where they are now....and now or at least in the time the program was recording they meditate to who they are inside....obviously they are BTS and that never change but whats make them happy in the future and NOW....

I understand that because when i baptized i was 14...i was like i wanna achieve every privileges i can, obviusly for love of god...but in the middle i had to be so carefull ofmany things....who were my friends? they are good influence...if not they couldnt be my friends and in the middle i lost good people who cnt have privilege but they were good people....or other thing happend was i must were clothes apropiate...and of course that is good...but to not be in the mouth of other (old school ones) i sometimes didnt use certains clothes that what not bad but maybe not many would like it....also nobody can see me with a guy beause i was so young and i give a bad influence when is better to wait till the age apropiate...and that was good because one must live your age...but later i tried to avoid the boys to not give the wrong impression...and in the middle i lost the oportunity to know some guys that try to reach me....i was always thinking about my privileges,the ones i had for 10 and even 15 some of them.....so for the other hand i was so proud of myself for achieve somethings to a early age and some much privileges for a young girl....

But i understand the way they feel because in certain moment one have to stop thinking in live a life that is only goal oriented but that not make us know us....that dont mean to be a bad person or behave improperly...simply means that one must discover what make us happy and know who are right now....that not a bad thing....so i undestand them...i hope that this time in militar unit make them heal with themself and come back more happy and more themself.

The life they live is not all gold moments, be pursued for sasaengs,not have privacy,be carefull what they show in Weverse or apps or carefull for what they said to camera or just simply what they show to other....his life is not longer his,,,not can be alone beacuse a wave of people cant do them something and some many things....i understand you boys...i hope some day can you have a life a little more normal and you can be more happy,  ARMY surely will help like they do it till now...

Lets be more happy and healthy

XOXO

E.

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